Section 3 Chapter 10

I am dead now. I was sitting in the Chestnut tree café drinking gin. Whenever I ran out a waiter would come over, and fill my glass up. I would look up at the poster of big brother every once in a while. The war was not going well on the African front. I had grown fatter and pinker. I had plenty of money and a job. Not that I actually worked much at the job. I only went in twice a week. If the Eurasians succeeded in Africa it could be the end of the world as I knew it. I began to think about how two plus two equaled 5. O’Brian was right about the changes in me being forever. I even saw Julia once, but we didn’t have very much to say to each other. We talked about how we had betrayed each other, and then she started to walk away from me. I followed for a few minutes, and then gave up. I thought about a fake memory of when I was a child. I knew it was fake, but it felt real. Suddenly a trumpet blared. We had won a huge victory in Africa driving back the Eurasians. Suddenly something changed in me; I now loved Big Brother completely. Then I was back in the ministry of love. I got shot in the back of the head. That is how I died.

Section 3 Chapter 5

I could tell that room 101 was far underground. I am not sure how I could tell, but I could. They strapped me to a chair. O’Brian told me that what was in room 101 was the worst thing in the world. He said that for me, the worst thing in the world was rats. He said that pain was not enough and that I must suffer the unendurable. He brought the cage with the rats closer to me. He said that once he let the rats out they would come over and start eating parts of me. He said that the mask would come over my face, and that the rats would be able to get at the rest of me. They would be coming soon; I had to do something to make it stop. That was when I yelled for them to do it to Julia, and not to me.

Section 3 Chapter 4

Everything was feeling better. They had given me a bigger cell and food and clean clothed, and a washtub. I was getting stronger and fatter every day. I was not bored or in pain. I just wanted to sit there and feel the absence of pain. That alone was enough. They even gave me cigarettes once. I started doing exercises. At first I was frustrated that I could do almost nothing, but I slowly got stronger, and was able to do more. I had finally agreed to everything the party said. I had given into O’Brian. Everything I believed for the last seven years is wrong. The thought police had followed me all that time. They knew I was against the party practically before I did. I started writing the party slogans on a piece of paper. Suddenly I remembered that I loved Julia. Shoot, I would surely suffer for my lapse of thought. I know that when they shoot me it will be from the back, while I am walking down the hall of somewhere. I will have to be ready to let my hatred out the moment I hear the gunshot. Then O’Brian came in and told me I was going to room 101.

Section 3 Chapter 3

I was back lying in bed with O’Brian talking to me. He said that it was time to start the understanding phase of my journey. He asked me why the party clings to power, I started to tell him that it was for peoples own good, but he cut me off. He said it was for the sake of the power itself. He talked to me about what power actually was. Suddenly I noticed how tired his face looked. He said that the individual was not important, and that it was the power of the party which mattered. He talked about how reality was completely inside the mind. He talked about how the world he was creating was essentially sliding backwards. I said that they would never be able to pull it off forever, but O’Brian said they could. He asked me if I thought I was morally superior, and when I said yes he played the tape of me agreeing to do all those horrible things for the brotherhood. He told me to get off the bed, take off my clothes, and look in the mirror. I looked horrible, I didn’t even recognize myself. I broke down, but O’Brian said I did this to myself. I told him that I had not betrayed Julia, and he agreed

Section 3 Chapter 2

Later I got beat more and more. I had to confess to many broad ranging crimes that every prisoner had to confess to. I got beat many times and often. Finally the beatings winded down, and the questioning started. The questioning consisted of a group of party intellectuals trying to trip me up with questions and run me in circles. Eventually the questions proved too much and I broke down. Once I was broken down they had me confess to many more crimes which I was not guilty of. When I woke up from that I was in a room with O’Brian. I was completely immobilized. Suddenly O’Brian moved his hand and pain erupted all over me. He said it was at 40 and that if I did not answer him satisfactorily he would turn it up to 100. He asked me some questions and I answered them truthfully. Then he asked me how many fingers he was holding up. I kept saying four and he kept shocking me. Finally I said it could be anything he wanted, and he stopped the pain. Then he asked me some more questions and shocked me some more. Finally when I said that I did not know he stopped it. Then he talked to me about why I had been brought to the ministry of love. Then suddenly he did something and there was a hole in my memory. He told me some things and I said I remembered them. Finally a man came and gave me an injection, and I fell asleep.

Section 3 Chapter 1

They took me to the ministry of love, and through me in a cell. I stayed there for a long time. I do not know how long it was, or what time of day it was, because there was no clock and no windows in the ministry of love. Prisoners were led in and out of the cells. Most of the prisoners were common proles headed for forced labor camps. There were a few political prisoners though, who the proles mostly ignored, except for one old lady who seemed to take an interest in me. Then suddenly Parsons was thrown into the cell. He was horrified. He said he had been muttering “down with big brother” in his sleep, and that his daughter had turned him in. Then a horribly emaciated man got thrown into the cell. When the guards came to take him away, they said he was going to room 101. When he heard that he started struggling against them, but they dragged him off anyway. Then O’Brian came in with a guard who knocked me unconscious with a truncheon.

Section 2 Chapter 10

When we woke up the prole woman was singing outside again. Julia went to cook something, but there was no oil in the stove. She said it was strange because she thought she remembered checking to make sure it was full. We stood next to each other looking at the prole woman. I told Julia that she was beautiful. We watched her some more. I told Julia we are the dead. She repeated me. Then a voice behind the painting said “You are the dead” We both jumped. The paining fell down to reveal a telescreen. Then suddenly men in black uniforms came through the window and surrounded us. Mr. Charington seemed to be directing them. I realized he was a member of the thought police.