Monday, April 19, 2010
Section #1 Chapter #1
I came home at lunch today. Bought an emptydiary and a pen. It was very dangerous as getting caught with them will most likely mean death. Started writing in it as soon as I got home. I am writing for the future. When I started I realized that I wasn't even sure of the date. I wrote about the flick that I saw last night. It got me thinking about the two minute hate this morning. I saw O'brien there today. There was also a dark haired girl there who I really hate because she seems so clean cut
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Mrs. Parsons came to see me today. When I went to answer the door, I left the diary open on the table because I did not want to smudge the ink. Luckily she didn't notice, but
ReplyDeleteI will have to be more carefull in the future. She came to me because it was blocked, and Mr. Parsons was away. The pipe was easy enough to clear, but I had some trouble with her children. Those children are complete brats. They were in an uproar just becuase their mother didn't have time to take them to the hanging. What a horrible event for children to want to see. The party turns children against their parents at an early age. Most children would just as soon betray their parents to the thought police if they could find something to betray them for. Manny have. And on top of that they are celebrated as heroes! The party destroys families. The party destroys everything good. Anywhay, as I was leaving the boy shot something at the bak of my head with a ctapult. Later I thought about the dream I
had a long time ago about O'brian. They reduced the chocolate ration today. I realize that the thought police will get me in the end, but I must stay alive for as long as possible
Section 1 chapter 3
ReplyDeleteI dreampt of my familly las night. I don't remember much about my familly, but I feel bad because I seem to remember that my mother and sisters lives were sacrifised for mine. I still miss my mother. I also dreampt of th dark-haired girl. In the dream she ripped off her clothes in one smooth motion. It was more about the motion than her body. The motion seemed to defy all the rules of the party. I exercised this morning while the telescreen gave me directions. I can only recall distan memories of the late fifties. One of my first memories is of an air raid. It's scarry how the party can just say that the past was different and everyone beleives it. I got caried away thinking about it and the telescreen yelled at me.
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ReplyDeleteSection 1 chapter 5
ReplyDeleteI ate lunch in the canteen. lunch was the usual discusting grey stew with bread and chease. I met Syme there, and he asked me if I had any razor blades. I lied that I did not because there was a shortage, and I a was hording them for myself. Syme and I sat down at a table to talk. Syme talked about the hanging and how I should have been there. Syme is very orthodox. We also got some gin to drink. I asked him how the dictionary was going, as a way to get off the topic of executions. Syme was working on the new newspeak dictionary, and loved to talk about it. He took the bait, and started talking about how making the new dictionary consisted almoset entirely of cutting out old words instead of creating new ones. Syme is going to get vaporized one of these days though, because even though he is completely orthodox he speaks too plainly. After a while, Mr. Parsons joined us. Now theres someone who will never get vaporized. He apologised for his children atacking me. Durring lunch there was an obviously false anouncement on the telescreen that production had increased by twenty percent this year. I thought about how stupid ugly people are the ones that always seem to do the best in the party.
Chapter 1 Section 6
ReplyDeleteI was thinking about the time I went to a prostitute three years ago. Then I started thinking about my wife. We seperated ten years ago because there were no children an I did not like her. She was a complete airhead and didn't like sex. She kept on insisting that they do it however, because it was their duty to the party to have children. I started thinking about how the party's goal with regard to sex was to remove all the pleasure. They instilled mental bariers against it in girls fron an early age. I wanted to just once break down those barriers, and commit rebellion.
Section one chapter seven
ReplyDeleteI bealeive that if there is hope it lies in th proles. The proles are not monitered like the outer party, and they make up of 85% of the population. If they revolted they could easily succeed. The problem is that they are not educated or orgasnized enough to revolt. The thought police work hard to sow rumors and disinformation among them. The thought police also eliminated proles who they thought might become dangerous. The problem is that I have no idea what life before the revolution was like. The propaganda obciouly says that we live far better now, but it just as obviously cannot be trusted. The problem with the current system is that everything is dreary and uniform. Through my entire life, I have only actually found one concrete peice of evidence that exposes the party's lies. Three of the early leaders of the revolution were convicted of inteligence with the enemy, and other charges. However I found a picture of them in new york, taken on the exact date that they had confessed to being in eurasia. This proved that the confession was false.
section 1 chapeter 8
ReplyDeleteToday I went walking in the area where the proles live. It was dangerous to not go to the comunity center but I risked it. As I was walking a Eurasian missile hit not far from where I was. I went to a drinking shop where an old man was arguing with the bartender. I bought him a drink, hoping to get some information out of him. I tried asking him if the world before big brother was better or worse than it is now. At first it seemed as if he might be helpfull, but he kept going off on random memories that didn't have anything to do with the question. I still wanted to find out the answer to my question though. I started to wander aimlessly, and walked unconciously to the antique shop where I originally bought the diary. While there I bought a paper weight with a verry beautifull peice of corall in it. The proprieter also taught me the first few lines to a poem, about a church named saint Clement's. As I was leaving though, disaster struck. The dark haired girl walked past me and saw me. She will surely turn me in. I thought about going after her and killing her, but I was too tired.
Section two chapter one.
ReplyDeleteThe most ubelievable thing happened to me today. I collided with the dark-haired girl in the halway, and she slipped the a note! I had to be carefull not to let the telescreens see the note. I was able to do it though, and the note said "I love you." And just yesterday I thought she was planning to turn me in. The whole junior anti-sex legue and all that must have just been a way to disquise herself. After all, who would suspect somewone in the junior anti sex league of being a criminal? I tried to meet her at lunch, but I had trouble. One day we completely missed each other. Then next day I had to go sit with Wilsher, who called me over. Finnally one day I was able to talk to her in the canteen. At first I was afraid that maybe she ha changed her mind but she had not. We arranged to meet at victory Square at eighteen thirty. There was a large, gathering so we were able to talk, and arange to meet again in the country side.
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ReplyDeleteSection 2 Chapter 2
ReplyDeleteI took the route that Julia had told me to take out to the country. It mainly consisted of a train ride on a train filled with proles. It was pretty uneventfull which was good. There were no telescreens out in the country, but there were some concealed microphones. I walked to the place she told me to go, and she met me there. She led me to a place in the wilderness that she said was safe. I told her all the bad things about me, but she said she didn't mind. She told me that she had found the hideout durring a comunity hike. She told me her name was Julia, and that she already knew my name. I told her that I had thought she was a member of the thought police, which made her happy. She shared a peice of real chocolate with me that she had gotten off the black market. She told me that the best way to get away with thoughtcrime was to always participate in patriotic activities. She swore a lot. A bird came out of the trees and started singing. She led me to another place after that. She said she had had afairs with scores of party members, but no members of the inner party. After that we made love
Section 2 Chaper 3
ReplyDeleteWhen she woke up, Julia emediately became buisnesslike, and explained the route that I should leave by to me. She told me about the next place that we would meet. She said she had to leave, to do something for the junior anti sex league. We met some other times over the next few months, but we had to be verry carefull no to be discovered. It was hard for us to meet not only because we had to be carefull but because we both also had to work so much. I found out a lot about her; that she worked in pornosec, and had her first love afair when she was 16. She was young enough that she did not remember a time before the party, and thought of it as natural. We met one other time that month, in the belfry of a fallen down church. I told her about Katherine , and a camping trip we went on, and how I had almost pushed her off a cliff.
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ReplyDeleteSection 2 Chapter 5
ReplyDeleteSyme got vaporized. Well, I don't actually know that he got vaporized, but he dissapeared so it was pretty obvious. Everyone was buisy preparing for hate week. The new hate song became verry popular. I met with Julia manny times durring June. I got into better shape and my vericose ulcer went away. I talked with Mr. Charington a lot too. We knew that sooner or later we were going to get caught, but not when. Somtimes though, it seemed as if things would last forever. We talked about ways to sabatoge the party, but didn't know how to start. I told her about O'brian, and how I was pretty sure that he was unorthodox too. I told her about Jones Aaronson and Ruthford, but she didn't seem to understand the significance of it. She seemed to be better at some things than me, but I't did not seem like she had a verry good grasp of the broad ideas and issues of the party.
Chapter 2 Section 6
ReplyDeleteIt finally came! A sign for O'brian. I have been waiting for this for years. I was walking down the halway in the ministry of truth, when O'brian came up to me. He mentioned Syme, and gave me his address, as well as the name of his servent. This could only be one thing, an invitation to some sort of anti-party organization. I had to memorize them because there was no way that I could carry the slip of paper concealed. I am definetly going to go to his house and find out about this.
Chapter 2 section 7
ReplyDeleteI dreampt about my mother tonight. I told Julia about how when I was a amall child, I was a brat, and always demanded more than my fair share of food. One day we got some chocolate, but I took it all, and ran away with it. When I came back, my mother and sister were gone. She said she wasn't surprised because all children were swine. I thought about how the worst thing about the party, was that it made people think that mere feelings were not important. I told her how I thought the proles were human and we were not. I also told her that it might be a good idea for her to get out of this relationship, because it was going to get them both killed. She said she had thought it out and already made her decision and was staying with me. We talked about not betraying each other when we were caught, and tortured in the ministry of love.
Section 2 Chapter 8
ReplyDeleteWe both went to O'brians house. When we arived, his servent let us in, and led us to him. He was involved with buisness, but when he was done he turned to talk to us. Suddenly, O'brian turned off the telescreen! We were both incredulous, but he said that inner party members had the power to do that. I told him all the crimes that we had committed to earn his trust. He told us that his servent, named martin was one with one of us. Martin poured some wine. He then offered a tost to Goldstein, who he said wa our leader. He then told us a little bit about Goldstein. He said that the organization was real, and was called the brotherhood. He said that we would learn hardly anything about the organization, so if we got caught we would not be able to say much about it. He then questioned us on whether we were willing to do a series of things. The only thing we dissagreed to was being sepertated. He told us that they often disquised there members to make them unrecognizable, and that sometimes they even amputated limbs. He told us that we would be fighting in the dark, and would only know a handfull of contacts. He told us that we would have to leave soon becuase they would get suspicious if he left the telescreen off for more than half an hour. He told them that he would send someone to deliver Goldsteins book to them. Soon after that we left.